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  • Your Photos - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community - Part 2
    teacher22 Participant She s just perfectly beautiful I m happy for you and your new friend Merry Christmas from Cincy December 21 2015 at 4 15 am 140811 teacher22 Participant This is last year s winter in MI Wish we had some snow for a white Christmas this year so pretty Attachments You must be logged in to view attached files December 21 2015 at 6 26 pm 140881 whatwasthequestion 2 2 Participant Hello All Serenity what a great idea to post pictures your scenic pics are breathtaking What lovely sights you have and I just ADORE your T V Watching Kitty I think you may already know I am crazy about kitties Thank you for posting these every one of them Wow teacher22 what lovely winter scenes of the snow Another midwesterner that misses our Usual White Christmas Isn t it just off the wall with the warm temperatures this year well depending on your location in MI Thank you for your pics I enjoyed them so much as I really do miss winter white this year PM How gorgeous is your new little one Baby Zoee you are so blessed to have such an adorable little pup I think I have really made up my mind about getting a trained PTSD dog I just don t think my kitties will agree with me My VAIO sneezed so all of my pictures are GONE but I do have one of my kitty Lisbeth sleeping on a Christmas gift under the tree She is the one who has a slight weight problem or maybe it s glandular yeah right and is caving in the top of the box Thank you all for adding the pictures as they are all fun to see Great idea serenity Merry Christmas Sheryl December 22 2015 at 3 26 pm 141007 teacher22 Participant I will repay you for the years that the locusts have eaten Joel 2 25 Attachments You must be logged in to view attached files December 22 2015 at 7 16 pm 141048 serenity Moderator My backyard friend I get bears all summer Attachments You must be logged in to view attached files December 24 2015 at 2 23 pm 141291 paige14 Participant Prada 2015 oil on 20 x20 canvas Fashion has always interested me even though I tend to wear Jeans and a Tshirt most everyday Working in isolation as a painter all day who would see me anyhow Attachments You must be logged in to view attached files December 25 2015 at 3 47 am 141337 teacher22 Participant Whoa he s close How great to have such a beautiful animal so close December 25 2015 at 3 48 am 141338 teacher22 Participant This is beautiful Do you use live models or from photos I like the way you ve contrasted the colors It is your gift December 25 2015 at 12 28 pm 141366 paige14 Participant Thank You to the Forum for making it possible for us to share our

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  • Your Photos - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community - Part 3
    Well Medication Meditation Mindfulness Peer Support Pets Animals Physical Health Psychotherapy Setting Goals Stress Management Talk Therapy Wellness Management Plan Relationships Caregivers Dating Family Forgiveness Friends Parenting Children School Spouse Partners Stigma Work Hope Celebrities Hope Inspiration Motivation Religion Faith Spirituality Success Stories K i d s All Articles Diagnosis Family Stories Genetics Living Well Support Symptoms Treatment Blog Most Recent Posts Meet Our Bloggers Comment Policy Forum Log In Forum Home Topics Discussions Partners Page Members Forum Rules Community Blog Forum Associations Letter to the Editor SOUNDOFF Talk to bp Writers Magazine Current Issue Archived Issues Customer Service Print Digital Subscription Buy Past Issues Frequently Asked Questions Digital Subscriber Access Page Subscribe 297 Views Your Photos Home Bipolar Support Group Topics Creative People Your Photos Search for Reply to this Discussion Start Your Own Discussion Tagged photographs This topic contains 31 replies has 6 voices and was last updated by teacher22 1 month 1 week ago January 5 2016 at 7 12 pm 142746 polarmouse Participant This is me at Fishermans Wharf in San Fransisco last year I was visiting my youngest daughter They had a cruise ship in port and we watched as everyone scurried around to board Attachments You must be logged in to view attached files January 6 2016 at 8 59 am 142808 teacher22 Participant I like the photo You look like someone I d like to know Great that you could visit your daughter in SF It s a great place to vacation Viewing 2 posts 31 through 32 of 32 total 1 2 3 You must be logged in to reply to this topic About the author Serenity Has 24 Articles CURRENT ISSUE NEWSLETTER Recent Issues October 1 2015 11 50 am Fall 2015 BIPOLAR DEPRESSION Letting the light in By Robin L

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  • "Painter’s Block" - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    I also returned to therapy and went back on meds shortly after this as the grief triggered bad swings again I had been trying to cope naturally on my own I miss that outlet Luckily I have been able to get into crafting making simple seasonal wreaths I also am very into gardening just potted plants but it still makes me happy and keeps me busy Anyway I want so badly to get back into painting so I am hoping you have some unique tips I have tried just sitting down and doing it and I do but I get so frustrated that they turn out bad and I just don t feel into it November 12 2015 at 11 48 am 135952 paige14 Participant Hello to the creative people who are in a slump and not making the things they want to be making as anonymous 2 has talked about in this particular discussion Currently I m in a slump not having painted in about two weeks because my mom is in a nursing home unable to manage her life and or money matters As her POV all of the responsibility is mine This has meant no time to make art And when I have the time I feel too depressed to paint fearing I ll make a hash of it wasting paint and more time Now I m sick and tired of this situation to the point where I m going to use force There s a half finished painting on the easel I ll start to work on it along with hip hop music from Pandora to get my mood up and my mind off of my depression creative slump Force works I ve made mistakes in the slump times where I have to wash the whole canvas down with soap and water then start all over I m bound and determined that the bipolar will not have it s sneaky little way with me Sometimes my better paintings happen when I m in a slump Who knows why I m not enjoying painting like I do when I m feeling good but who cares Really the world will not stop spinning on its axis if I paint with no happiness And the chances are if I stop taking the slump so seriously I might actually relax enough to the point where i m pretty much okay with not doing my best work or ruining the whole thing In time the desire to make art will come back I ll be enjoying the process again I won t be making a bunch of mistakes Managing my bipolar will not take away my creativity no matter what It s about distress tolerance when the slumps arrive If I can push through the slumps others can too Blessings and Peace Paige November 12 2015 at 6 55 pm 136234 polarmouse Participant Hello dear Paige Sometimes my better paintings happen when I m in a slump Who knows why I

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  • Introductions? - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    with Cyclothymia 12 years ago when I was 15 after struggling with it for as much of my life as I can remember My mom even used to call me the Jekyll and Hyde baby not that I remember those days but still My doctors at the time realized what it was because I had a massive upswing in the middle of an appointment which was lucky for me because at least we knew what was really going on I ve struggled with self harm eating disorders depression rage being on meds being off meds and of course general stress After going off my meds completely I self medicated with caffeine through the rest of high school and college I met a guy thought I was in love married him and have now divorced him Looking back I know that it was a verbally abusive relationship I lost a lot of who I was to it to him I don t like kids I don t want kids so the second choice really isn t much different than the first for me So I called my older sister and she helped me get out Throughout all of this my mom was slowly dying from a disease called Frontotemporal Dementia At first it presents kind of like Alzheimer s but slowly your brain really just rots away as does your body until you re a shell of who you once were with no language left to you She died a year and a half ago and I never really got to tell her how thankful I was that she got me into therapy all those years ago She was the best mom a kid could ask for even if the kid didn t know it then Gladly now I m back on a recovery plan I m back with doctors that I know and trust I m back on medication that doesn t make me sick to my stomach Regular sleep schedule as of a month ago Healthier diet and tracking what I eat in a mostly in a mostly non judgemental way we re our own worst critics am I right And I m in the healthiest relationships I ve ever had With my sisters with my dad and with my other That last one He s the best Supportive Challenges me Helps me be healthy There for me any time any place He s my best friend and I m glad to say that we re moving in together a little less than a month from now So yeah that s a nutshell of me What s comin will come an we ll meet it when it does September 20 2015 at 5 53 pm 129128 polarmouse Participant Hello littleblackdragon and welcome Thank you for sharing your history and letting us get to know you It s always nice to have someone new here that can participate give advise and just a fresh perspective in general I am diagnosed

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  • littleblackdragon | Activity Streams | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    Family Stories Genetics Living Well Support Symptoms Treatment Blog Most Recent Posts Meet Our Bloggers Comment Policy Forum Log In Forum Home Topics Discussions Partners Page Members Forum Rules Community Blog Forum Associations Letter to the Editor SOUNDOFF Talk to bp Writers Magazine Current Issue Archived Issues Customer Service Print Digital Subscription Buy Past Issues Frequently Asked Questions Digital Subscriber Access Page Subscribe Home Members littleblackdragon active 2 months 3 weeks ago Activity Profile Friends 0 Forums Personal Mentions Favorites Friends Show Everything Updates Posts Comments Friendships Topics Replies Viewing item 1 to 7 of 7 items littleblackdragon started the topic Introductions in the forum Bipolar Community for Creative People 4 months 3 weeks ago Hi there I ve posted a few things this morning but I kinda felt like should more formally introduce myself Sweeping general info life story time My parents split up when I was 9 We all moved around a lot and I was bullied in school because I m the weird arty smart girl who is mildly androgynous and hangs out with boys I was diagnosed Read more littleblackdragon replied to the topic What changes have you made in the forum Bipolar Support for Recovery 4 months 3 weeks ago The biggest changes I ve made Regular sleep schedule 8 30 3 30 weird I know but I m a barista and have to be at work at 4 am some days Exercise I can be really bad at self motivation but I ve got a fitness tracker that makes me feel more like it s a game it scores my steps in points Meds compliant I was diagnosed with Read more littleblackdragon replied to the topic Coping Skills in the forum Bipolar Support for Recovery 4 months 3 weeks ago If you like the looks of Dialectical Behavioral Therapy I found a skills workbook that I ve been using lately called The Dialectical Behavior Therapy Skills Workbook for Bipolar Disorder by Sheri Van Dijk MSW It s helpful easy to work with and it s full of charts you can copy for your own use and exercises to do Admittedly I m only a couple Read more littleblackdragon replied to the topic Movies in the forum Other 4 months 3 weeks ago I admit that I haven t gotten around to Inside Out yet but it s just jumped to the top of my list Stephen Fry made a documentary called The Secret Life of the Manic Depressive back in 2006 It s available for free on the internet including youtube as part of an outreach of mental health awareness Great documentary As for Silver Linings Read more littleblackdragon replied to the topic What do you Find Funny in the forum Group mental health Humor 4 months 3 weeks ago I ve always been a fan of puns and nerdy jokes What s the difference between a hippo and a Zippo One is pretty heavy and the other is a little lighter littleblackdragon changed

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  • When you're having a bipolar episode how does it effect your creativity ? - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    all of your replies This weekend my plan is to work making up for some missing time during the week days bty Mary I did a gigantic tidy up in my studio February 1 2015 at 5 37 pm 114427 becca2015 Participant Hi Paige I agree I am also an artist and really find it a struggle when on meds to get inspired and motivated to create The only thing that helps me is by being on deadlines so it puses me to meet the criteria and times however I have the predicament of anxiety because I m feeling pressured into producing something I found when I wasn t on meds and excessive drinking I believed I could create anything but of course then comes the downside to it This probably doesn t help your question but I just thought it would be nice to know your not alone February 1 2015 at 6 54 pm 114430 paige14 Participant Hi becca In fact your reply has helped me You re right when we share a problem it helps us to feel less alone Bipolar moods can bring on the habit of needing to isolate Here on the forum we can write to each other whenever the mood is right and we re wanting to reach out to give support or receive support Everything goes two ways on here Like you I have anxiety problems Needing to meet a deadline has always been a source of worry If I didn t procrastinate so much maybe then I would have some peace What type of art are you making I wish we could post pictures of our artwork I hope you have a good week Thanks again for your reply Paige February 1 2015 at 7 06 pm 114431 strangedays Participant I have recently begun dealing with this issue myself I m stable on my medication now and I love being that way but as a tradeoff I ve found my ability to produce a lot of work quickly has diminished This is important for writing first drafts where the going rule is to write them as fast as possible I ve got 19 novel premises to develop and outline and 3 novels in various stages of revision I have enough material to make a writing career I just have to figure out where to take it and how to get it all out of me For the answer I ve turned to trying to write up a schedule and just learning to stick to it Deadlines I ve read countless examples of writers who without the use of bipolar hypo mania wrote consistently and prolifically I know it can be done it s just a matter of finding the rhythm that stability has to offer Creativity didn t die The rate at which we produce did I think you can find your rhythm too Maybe try establishing a routine An hour a day uninterrupted for your creative pursuits February 2 2015 at 12 45 pm 114445 paige14 Participant Hi StrangeDays Before medication I would experience the ability and even more importantly the desire to create one painting after the other with no breaks low appetite and insomnia along with euphoria and grandiosity You mentioned the trade off when we go on meds This is what happened to me although sometimes I ll slip into a manic mood and the work takes off like a rocket Those meds don t completely snuff out my manic or depressive moods The problem is I still paint in a manic way but without the euphoric moods Your response is validating in the sense where I have established a rhythm where routine and structure are firmly in place Painting after breakfast reading followed by swimming laps All my life I ve needed and put into place a strict disciplined lifestyle Rather too much so because when I m unable to be creatively alive and productive it s painful I feel fragmented lacking a solid and dependable mood goes against the fiber of my being Reading your response brought up all kinds of thoughts regarding why I feel lost when the creativity is low when the desire to create is low I m still producing the paintings but with very little joy and allot of uncertainty as to whether or not the painting is good enough I also have to wonder if many creative people who are actively immersed in their art whether it be music or writing or refinishing furniture or gardening or cooking or sewing etc will always have doubts nonproductive episodes failures along with the good times Maybe our identity is merged with our desire to make art no matter what our mood happens to be As you said the creativity doesn t die But maybe we feel the slow down as a type of painful loss of who we are as people Good luck with writing I think writers have it hard because of how much time it takes to produce a book I ve heard of many writers needing years to complete one book Painters need years to practice painting and maybe out of 20 paintings only one soars This could be the plight of the artist and one reason way we re oftentimes referred to as the suffering artist But if we don t take our art seriously who will Paige February 2 2015 at 6 41 pm 114451 strangedays Participant I also have to wonder if many creative people who are actively immersed in their art whether it be music or writing or refinishing furniture or gardening or cooking or sewing etc will always have doubts nonproductive episodes failures along with the good times My understanding is that yes everyone has peaks and valleys in terms of creativity For writers the advice is to keep pushing through A great reminder I have heard is You can t call yourself a writer if you don t write Maybe the same is

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  • When you're having a bipolar episode how does it effect your creativity ? - A Discussion About Bipolar | bpHope - bp Magazine Community - Part 2
    the local Home ReUse store so more junk buy solid wood Mid Century Modern tables nightstands bookcases etc and refurbish them either into the original lovely piece they were meant to be or play with them my most recent piece had the legs changed out to tapers got new 50s brass hardware from the ReUse store and the top was tiled with multicolored glass Venetian tiles and 16 equidistantly spaced wood hand painted tiles from the 50s each a different animal as would appear in a children s story book I also do high end basketry and abstract vessels made from cloth line and covered in various materials I make yarn covered abstract vessels with plastic toys inside and sometimes bells with openings that can be reached through with a finger for people on the Autism Spectrum Before I had to stop working I worked with people with Developmental Disabilities and came to sort of specialize in working with folks on the Autism Spectrum I seem to have a real connection with people who experience Autism I make fiber art jewelry felted paintings abstract vessels simulated nature pieces and so on And I m learning to weld large pieces and work with metal on a small scale for jewelry And I write too I suppose I m a Jack of All Trades When I m depressed I produce nothing I don t even sketch in an art journal or write a few lines When I m manic I think I m the most brilliant artist ever to have walked the earth Picasso was trash compared to me And I fill journal upon journal with art sketches painting ideas and writing I paint tons of paintings and do some feltwork but not much else When I look back on what I ve created when my head is screwed on again I see that most of it is just garbage the scribblings of a madwoman When I m hypomanic though I m at my best And if I m lucky that begins at the first hint of Spring and lasts until early fall Unfortunately I m rapid cycling so there are a lot of ups and downs along the way but my baseline tends to be hypo I turn out a large body of work painting over the crap from when I was manic although I haven t actually been manic for about 3 years until 6 months ago I d been deeply depressed for TWO YEARS get a lot of writing done create tons of ideas both visual art and writing in my journals for the future garden ferociously and squeeze in a great many hikes canoeings and camping trips if my husband is up for it it s fabulous My psychiatrist the one she sent me to for a 2nd opinion because it took her 3 years to find the med that worked and other docs 5 years of nothing my therapist and my general practitioner all feel I will never be working full time again So I m returning to university for a 2nd Bachelor s this one in Art Fibers and Sculpture and minors in Landscape Architecture and Psychology Then I plan to earn my Horticultural Therapy certificate through another university and hopefully do part time work as a Landscape Designer for Horticultural Therapy programs We shall see My therapist feels it s a great path for me and is helping me work through it and I have a lot of faith in her I d be working for myself having some choice over when I work it s not the kind of work I d get hired for in the bleak winter and I could just shut down my operation during the winter if necessary making art and working with Mother Nature It doesn t get much better than that I hope this plan works out Cheers March 10 2015 at 11 12 am 115567 ibrt Participant I thought I would post an update I have not met my writing goal but I am nearly complete in the organization of my workspace I knew the disorganization with my workspace my files my desk on and on was clearly hindering my ability to work as well as I know I am capable I learned early on that being a writer musician visual artist or any practice that is creative has to be viewed as that a practice a discipline I was taught by one of my teachers who became my friend and was instrumental in me developing my writing the level I did many things but in one course I took with her she told the class two things that I think are helpful write everyday even if it is only one word and never through anything away All the writing that I did not simply get rid of as I thought it wasn t worth publishing or letting anyone read has become invaluable material for a work in progress I find hypomania a time that I can produce effectively depression was a time when I wrote about the depression mania produced from rather strange writings but if I take fragments from these manic writings a pen and notebook helped me survive both extremes and writing in mania seemed so important then they too can be turned into something else Creativity is always within us and for writing there are certain approaches I take that I was taught that help get the process started As an experimental writer in some ways I have it easier than for example a poet who writes more mainstream work that is the current poetry that is more widely read I also find that I have to stop what I m doing if possible and write something down if it arises in my brain Some have mentioned Touched With Fire This was an important book for me years ago when I knew I was bipolar although I carried a different label for many years like an anvil Has anyone read An Unquiet Mind same author Kay Redfield Jameison Do not read this book if you are not stable and feel secure in your stability I also should emphasize the importance of not reading the other books and watching the film and videos I am going to recommend if you are not stable are secure in your stability I am reading now among many books read when stable The Flight of the Mind Virginia Woolf s Art and Manic Depressive Illness some clinicians prefer to use this term as Kay Redfield Jamison does The book is not only biographical but has very good perspectives medical personal social historical on bipolar affective disorder itself It is balanced and has a solid clinical perspective The Kay Redfield Jamison written a soon to be release book about the poet Robert Lowell I read about his wife trying to desperately get help for her husband when he was manic The writers and professors she spoke to desperate did not see him as ill but as quick clever and witty I remember the same thing happening to me delighting others somehow while manic socializing with writers and artists the fun manic was the one that was there when I was very ill but when depressed I was not someone people wanted to talk to very much There is an excellent BBC documentary watch when stable that Stephan Fry made watch it online about bipolar He has become an incredible advocate i Britain and is a man to admire as well as Kay Redfield Jamison my opinion Two days ago I was outside in the driveway of my home and I noticed a remarkable sky the cloud formation was unlike anything I had seen I thought it would make a good photograph working on photography as an artistic medium a dream pushed aside long ago I nearly didn t but I did get my camera and take my photos I was reviewing all my photos and my son who at a young age is an amazing photographer was looking with me I had dismissed many photos as not good at all but children are so very wise when I would say that I didn t think a photo was very good he often would say that it was a very good photo and why I all of a sudden felt like I could see I knew then to photograph the way I write using instinct rather than thinking about it too much I write like that Our brains our clever brains cause us to try to think our way out of problems and instead the wheels turn we might think ourselves into a hole that was never there before I try to shift to the being the important activity and being mindful instead I am reading another book that is about the same thing but its perspective is based in fact and science The thesis incredibly researched is that our first quick decision is proven to be the best without all the planning and weighing out that so often is redundant Call it instinct your gut intuition or staying in the moment and practicing mindfulness it works for me but it takes a lot of work and discipline March 10 2015 at 5 01 pm 115577 princess Participant In reply to tulablue I have been on epilim as a mood stabaliser it is very effective Taking time to be creative is key life is so busy with work and home getting a balance is hard March 10 2015 at 11 56 pm 115587 ibrt Participant Hello stargazer and paige14 My apologies to both of you I was replying to both of you at the same time but did not make it clear with your usernames and paragraph breaks what was written to whom When I write I begin creative work only in longhand I input into the computer but I have learned over and over that I am unable to see obvious errors if I attempt to find them on a screen I must first print it proofread and write the corrections on paper before very carefully typing the final copy Much of what I wrote about applies to anyone but when I wrote about method being true to myself as a writer and not compromising myself for lack of better words I was addressing paige14 I will keep track of posts and my replies in note form so this does not happen again I would like to reply to some of the very topics you both raised and others of course but my manuscript is waiting Thank you everyone who has posted on this topic I would not be ready to resume my writing life without your support With gratitude abrupt March 11 2015 at 12 04 am 115588 starjammer Participant Hi tulablue I took lithium for several months a few years ago I have nothing good to say about it I may have been over medicated or it simply didn t work for me But it left me exhausted flat drained of personality sense of humor of my interests and hobbies killed my libido which is a HUGE deal for me made me completely incapable of creating any visual art or writing it basically made me a simple minded tool with no desire to live There are a couple people in my support group who swear by it but I d rather go without any meds at all than EVER take lithium again I currently use Latuda you must be diagnosed as having Bipolar I to be prescribed that and most insurances will insist you have tried and failed at a number of other meds prior to it being covered Prazosin and Clonazepam for my psychosis and PTSD Adderall for my ADHD and near narcolepsy and a number of herbs vitamins and supplements all of which my drs are aware of It s the best combo I ve tried so far Just my two cents worth Good luck StarJammer March 11 2015 at 12 10 am 115589 starjammer Participant ibrt Welcome Aboard to me eh LOL No sweat that you were addressing someone else I don t take it personally Cheers March 11 2015 at 1 51 pm 115609 ibrt Participant Hi ibrt here I am writing in direct response to your post as I was responding to your post for much of the post that I wrote that was not clear So starjammer you are a true artist I am amazed at your abilities in so many mediums and your scrounging for found objects you incorporating your work with individuals with autistic spectrum disorder into an interactive art your work with furniture and the other skills amazed me I wrote about not compromising my artistic integrity I am not suggesting by returning to school is in any way compromising your artistic integrity I had a friend who was a worked in jobs related to science for part of the year and as an artist for the remainder The fact that working in horticulture would give reduced employment in certain times of the year in some ways is ideal as that could be devoted to your art making full time Have you read Touched With Fire yet It is very well researched and is not like so many of the biographies written on artists that are rather sensationalistic and are not particularly accurate I know for me that any mood is fodder What if you create something while having a down not depressed that expressed this mood or to express in whatever form that strikes you as appropriate any emotion anger frustration anxiety If all of the art that is here today past and current disappeared because it expressed these emotions or various intense states and experience every human being bipolar or not were simply disappear we wouldn t have many works of art left Regards ibrt March 11 2015 at 6 20 pm 115623 starjammer Participant Hi ibrt I have to admit I m a bit manic y right now more so than I realized the unfortunate realization came to me yesterday when I went on a large and secret shopping spree secret from my partner gulp So all that to say I didn t wasn t mentally able to give the other post to which you refer a proper reading I will attempt to do that this afternoon or evening I m trying a few things to reel my manic kite in Anyway thank you for the complements I don t really feel like I do anything particularly out of the ordinary with my varied interests I just have many interests research everything under the sun collect tons of used books I could open my own library LOL on my many interests and then commit to learning something new I may only do the new thing once or I may incorporate it into my regular repertoire but either way I have a new skill under my belt I think I m preparing myself for the apocalypse and having to do all for one s self I m half joking I m 1 incredibly paranoid Snowden only served to heighten that to sky level 2 am quite sarcastic and have quite a snarky sense of humor that unfortunately does not translate across the interwebs and I forget Case in point my Welcome Aboard post to you Only meant to be funny I swear I wasn t demanding your attention although it was very polite of you to offer it And 3 I m an ass I haven t read the rules so if I m not allowed to say that my apologies but it is true So all the previous to say I just like to know how to do stuff For example future plans include building a solar oven a cob oven a fire pit a fence that is both high to keep deer from jumping it and dug into the ground a couple feet to slow the entry of rabbits and moles for my vegetable and non orchard fruit and then starting the garden an orchard of semi dwarf and dwarf fruit and nut trees a greenhouse made of collected Craigslist and the building re use store concrete blocks and old windows a hoop greenhouse repairing our barn the people who had this property prior to us really let it go and putting in some fences for rescuing animals a few goats of various sizes and types that no longer produce enough milk and would otherwise be slaughtered a few pigs also of a range of sizes and breeds a couple of alpacas to protect my little herd maybe 2 or 3 sheep and possibly some angora rabbits that I can brush the shedded fur from to use in my fibers work plus keep up with the gardening and landscaping I ve already started Ugh I m rambling because I m crazy right now I ve started Touched With Fire twice and keep getting distracted I hope to finish it within the next 2 or 3 weeks I m also reading a big fat book of very detailed descriptive Bukowski poems that all demand 2 or 3 readings apiece as well And I agree with everything I ve read supporting it artists of every type with bipolar and schizophrenia to some extent are largely responsible for the creative works that fill our world Without us this would be a very cold boring gray planet Good thing we exist I have a hard time completely hating my bipolar PTSD dissociative ADHD yes bipolar not so much because it has given me gifts that I doubt I would otherwise have Cheers StarJammer March 11 2015 at 9 56 pm 115626 paige14 Participant tulablue I m taking the mood stabilizer Lamictal for about 10 years This med works very well for me in combination with a few others

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    to me working with a variety of mediums and medias And I would love to talk art with you I have a couple of friends who make art one is um terrible the other terrific but neither really want to discuss making art art history artists etc And the kids in my classes are half my age or younger and don t really want to chat with someone who s old enough to be their mom or older Sob I m only 40 and look 28 or 30 But they have cast me as a Crone and I am to be avoided LOL Oh well Most of them seem a bit dim anyway and are fairly ignorant compared to my life chock full of experiences Do you do facebook messenger I kind of hate fb but it allows me to keep up with friends spread out all over the place and mssngr is a great way to converse if you hate the phone like I do and don t want to use up all of your txt minutes If you do I d love to art chat and just chat in general because you seem interesting and intelligent and I am very picky I m quite impressed by your Pandora numbers I m a last fm er but my husband listens to Pandora so I have an idea how much you must listen Wow I must confess I go on frequent netflix binges I m on the original Star Trek TV series right now while I work I usually just listen but for some reason it s very comforting Okay I must get back to gardening while it s still sunny and warm Have a great afternoon Namaste March 13 2015 at 2 10 am 115702 ibrt Participant Hello to all that have posted on this forum Thanks to all who have written here and in other forums and written back and for this forum itself my invisible unconscious block the truth and reason I was not working on my writing has left and shall not return I am working hard During my last manic episode I acted inappropriately publicly in front of other writing professionals It was not luckily within my usual circle or that might prevent me from re establishing my name An faculty member s highly inappropriate remarks precipitated a natural emotional response but my complaint taken very seriously was not made until later at the urging of the only person I told That mania took an enormous toll My delusions of grandeur were very connected to music art and writing The importance of writing while manic seems enormous I have a certain ability to write when depressed as it can be cathartic but during a severe clinical depression getting out of bed is seemingly impossible As I have worked on my manuscript organizing my writing and other related activities it was clear how little I cared about my writing although if you had asked I would have talked about my writing as if nothing was wrong I learned that art is work and the harder you work the better your outcome If you wait for inspiration I suppose you could become more patient if you are calm while you wait Knowing writers musicians and artist who are not bipolar I have found among those I knew and respected that being self critical is common It comes with the territory in a sense since you need a thick skin perhaps this a human defence like the callouses needed to play certain guitars and styles thank you brave BP persons ibrt March 13 2015 at 10 58 pm 115727 paige14 Participant Hello ibrt Making art is hard work This usually means Practice Practice Practice If an artist is waiting on inspiration they re taking a mighty big risk that Inspiration has better things to do and other fish to fry My work is painting oil portraits I have to say one portrait out of perhaps twenty soars the others are learning experiences The self critical part of an artist is the biggest reason why we need to hang around with other artists they aren t our competition they re our comrades We need the solidarity that comes from supporting each other s work kind of like around here where we support each other s efforts to be healthy knowing full well how hard it can be to keep our sunny side up and our manic side on the down low So go on and start writing and writing and writing My best advise because it works for me is write about what makes you happy and by this I mean it can be a sad and depressing manuscript but you re happy with telling the story and pleased with the results Paige April 12 2015 at 12 35 pm 116636 mando Participant Trough the creative process I believe we can achieve healing and reach the most inner parts of our being that somehow makes it all better even if its only for an instant but with art that instant may remain forever Thanks for sharing April 15 2015 at 12 31 am 116696 Anonymous hi everyone I am just touching base with you all I also have bipolar 11 I have struggled to keep my artistic talents alive since being diagnosed 7 years ago and been administered the meds suitable for me the past 2 years have been the least productive reading all your posts with such handy hints is so welcoming and so is knowing I am indeed not alone is making me want to sob I too hope to get artisticly active after next week moving to new home will be complete I am required to ppick up my teanage sun from his school bus now but would like to be more engaged in this forum soon bye April 15 2015 at 11 18 pm 116738 paige14 Participant Hi bluebutterfly I m glad our discussion has

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