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  • Why I Still Exercise | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    what s reasonable to do and stick to that I also know what needs to be done and then I get out of there Going to the gym 3 times week gives me a routine a place to be a knowledge that I am doing this specific thing at this specific time at this specific place for the benefit of my body and my mind I like feeling stronger more flexible better balanced and I know I m sleeping better I m listening to music again I learned how to do the headphone streaming free music like a millennial thing while working out It s a whole new world of discovery and it pumps up my workouts I can still go for my walks with the dog locally Longer stuff more remote stuff I go with my husband or a friend The point is that being physical despite my disabilities remains critical to my wellness in body and mind And that I am forever adaptable when it comes to taking care of me and my mental health management needs Tagged with Beth Mader bipolar and exercise bipolar and living well bipolar and physical disabilities bipolar and working out About the author Beth Brownsberger Mader Has 199 Articles Beth Brownsberger Mader was diagnosed with bipolar type II disorder and C PTSD in 2004 at age 38 after decades of confusion and pain In the past decade she has studied the two disorders worked in peer support and sought a path to her own wellness Today Beth works as a freelance writer and artist She became a contributing editor featured columnist for BP Magazine in 2007 and blogger for bpHope in 2011 Beth holds a B A from Colorado College and M F A from University of Denver Beth s primary area of interest is the relationship between bipolar and PTSD She is currently working on a memoir and building a body of artwork focusing on her recovery Check out Beth s blog at http www bessiebandaidrinkiewater wordpress com 1 COMMENT Joanne August 20 2015 Reply I hear you Beth I ve had an injury all summer and really notice the effects of not doing any sort of cardio on my mind and sleep LEAVE YOUR COMMENT Cancel reply Your email address will not be published Required fields are marked Message First Name or Nickname Do not use full name Email RELATED ARTICLES Living with Bipolar Why I Still Exercise and Do Yoga February 6 2016 1 01 am I wrote in this winter s issue of BP Magazine Why I still Exercise about how despite both mental and physical struggles and restrictions I continue New Year New Care January 9 2016 1 01 am It s that time of year again when after signing up new health insurance plans in the US have some of us seeking new health care providers Headlines Holidays and Hope December 26 2015 1 01 am Fourteen years ago I wrote a holiday letter stuffed copies

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  • Pre-menstrual syndrome (PMS) & Bipolar Anger – This is personal! | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    mood swings I am way more emotional than I was ever before I get snappish sometimes though I control it and I fall flat on my moods wondering sometimes if I am not loosing my mind But I am a mildly depressed person ever since I know myself I have a long inoculated self control and I manage Still I wonder how do other people handle the same things It can become scary and we know so little about how to handle these I live in a former communist country with psychology still recovering from being forbidden by the former rulers of the country My best wishes to you and thank you for sharing and inviting people to talk Lisa June 24 2015 Reply This is such a great topic Thank you for bringing it up I could not locate it on your other social media so I am responding here I have been suffering and struggling with Bipolar 2 since I was in my teens however there was not a freely recognized and used diagnosed disorder It was hormones My mother yelled at my brother to NOT antagonize me during my periods I do remember that I turned to alcohol to help me cope unknowingly Once I recovered from alcoholism I began to notice that I was terribly moody and irritable during my period obviously but very depressed and emotional the week before and often the week after I always told my dear therapist that I only got ONE good week a month because of my dang period What could I do She told me to talk to my psychiatrist and Ob Gyn My psychiatrist has agreed to let me take a little extra anti depressants the week before if needed but right now I am on a serious med adjustment that it s not possible to test this And I haven t been to my Ob Gyn I look forward to hearing more and not feeling so alone because I guess normies just accept and adjust to this It s quite disruptive for me Just reading this and writing makes me feel a little better Thank you Jess June 24 2015 Reply I have always been able to kind of manage or cope with my bipolar but then I had a hysterectomy 2 years ago and it seems like the rage is never ending it s very difficult to find a hormone and antidepressant and depression combo without completely going under mentally and emotionally I m still in my fight and I m trying to find the right mix and just holding on with white knuckles to everything I do have because I ve lost everything elseI thought I was alone the more I read other peoples and what they had to say it s just comforting that I m not going insane Bianca June 24 2015 Reply Wow I m relieved to read this I ve struggled all my life with mood issues and menses seriously complicated things for me I used to think I lived with 3 weeks of PMS and one week off lol Since I passed 45 it has intensified to the point that my psych added Prozac on during the 2 weeks before my period It has done a world of good and thankfully I haven t had any manic side effects from it I want to say one last and to me very important thing before getting diagnosed finally with Bipolar I my life WAS out of control I never needed an excuse It was terrifying lonely and isolated All I wanted was to be normal I have found solace and comfort in being proactive in my disease I never ever would even think to look for an excuse to lose control again Quite frankly I found the suggestion insulting and it tainted what is otherwise a very relateable article Lara June 24 2015 Reply Since my teens I have been a hysterical wreck when it s time for my period Early in my 20s I found out I could skip my period with the contraceptive I was on I was misdiagnosed as depressed for eight years and was only on antidepressants yet I still noticed the difference in my mood and aggressive behavior when I let my body have a period every few months Now diagnosed as bipolar 1 I continue to skip my periods because even the mood stabilizers I m now on can t keep my moods in check when hormones are the problem My GP and psychiatrist are in agreement that this is the best course of action for me I m not planning on having kids because of my bipolar so speculative adverse effects on fertility don t bother me at all I would suggest to any woman to look into this approach and see if it will work for you It sure has for me Dawn January 20 2016 Reply I ve recently been diagnosed as bipolar but not sure one yet I m nearing menopause and the last 1 1 2 yrs have been horrible w med changes prior to the bipolar diagnosis GYN probs I had Now I m having real rage probs every month w my periods and I seem to be responding well to the meds for bipolar this far the rest of the month but the rage is out of control which leads to shocidal states If u don t mind sharing what meds are u taking for the contraceptive and for bipolar both I didn t respond well to a contraceptive in my 20 s cuz I became so depressed but I wasn t on any other meds at the time I m hoping to control the period bipolar induced rage probs with ur med combo if possible for me At this point I m needing options and I just read tonight that hysterectomies CAN make a bipolar person worse and there s obviously no returns or refunds once that procedure is done Ugh sigh It s a 50 50 gamble from what I read tonight I m in serious hopes ur combo might help those around me and myself both Things have just escalated with the rage and suicide both to the point something has to be done to get things line out Thks in advance for ur help and sharing Blessings to u fromND June 25 2015 Reply This is a topic we need to openly talk about Well women and those they affect I sobered up when I turned 19 Less than 5 yrs later my moods were looked at as something other than dry drunks or related to not drinking I was diagnosed with bipolar and started on Li It was a few yrs later antidepressants were added Then I started to dive down into depression I live with serious depression When it got scary I called my psych nurse It would last for 3 days then my menses would start I would call and let them know it wasn t time for a med adjustment or change It took awhile to see the pattern since it was developing and not consistent Starting on hormones birth control helped a lot Was on them thru my 20 s then off for a period of time Restarted in my mid 30 s due to uncontrolled symptoms I started on a prescription with menses 4 times a year without PMS I know my pdoc counselor and GP who all communicated when necessary were concerned with my going thru menopause Around 50 yrs of age I happened to see a gyn PA who thought the strength of my hormone med was too strong Testing showed I was post menopausal She slowly weaned me off the birth control My mood swings have stayed at just my cyclical swings Candiance June 25 2015 Reply I totally relate to this article Kristen June 26 2015 Reply I have had issues with PMS for years When I first saw a psychiatrist and was diagnosed with major depressive disorder he said that the severe PMS could be a sign of bipolar It seemed to get more manageable once I was diagnosed with bipolar II and put on a mood stabilizer 8 months ago a different psychiatrist decided I wasn t bipolar and took me off my mood stabilizer Concurrently with this I started showing signs of early menopause Now my irritability and suicidal depression are almost out of control and I m sure it is linked to the hormone changes Mel August 2 2015 Reply I relate so very much I can t even tolerate the sound of someone breathing near me not exactly reasonable It s pure agony liza August 2 2015 Reply Ha ha Mel same here even blinking p sses me off at times We are so not alone xx Chelle August 2 2015 Reply OMG I can sooooo relate to this however I find my mood change lasts for a little longer than one day I find it starts a few days before my period starts and ends about 3 days into it so about 6 days in total I am already on 2 different mood stabilisers an ant depressant and an anti anxiety so not really many other options for me I did go on the pill for a little while but the benefits were outweighed by the side affects so I went off it It s hard enough dealing with Bipolar I Disorder without a menstral cycle adding to the problem Can t wait till I start menopause NOT Imagine what those hormonal changes will do with the Bipolar liza August 2 2015 Reply Hi Chelle I had to laugh I m So not looking forward to menopause either My mum went through HELL and she started at 42 it lasted 8 years for her Me I m 42 now and hoping to god my hormones settle down Fingers crossed xx Crystal August 2 2015 Reply This happens w me Too Some months worse than others but I usually put myself on a time out and stay to myself for that day or two The noise gets to me as well It s crazy Like the banging or whatever is literally inside my skull I can t stand it I thought I was going crazy Glad to know others experience these things too Kay kay August 3 2015 Reply I to suffer bout 10 days before my menstral cycle I m totally difunctional very depressed irritable can t Handel any noise Need for sleep is contstent I get real irritable cause I just can t do my house work then can t stand to live in a messing unorganized home my loving boyfriend suffers from fybromylasia its hard for him to help me I get no help from our big families and feel very alone at that time I m on many phsych drugs and prempro multi viatimin niacin I m 54 yrs old been suffering for about 25 yrs Its really tough I can t hold down a job cuz of this illness I m diagnosed as bp1 Been hospitalized 3 times thanks for reading Good luck to all of u who suffer like me hang in there prays to u cristi September 28 2015 Reply Before my period I get very noise sensitive Every one seems like they are yelling and talking excessively I recently started working at a salon where I have my own room with a door which is always closed during pms time This works very well most of the time I ve also noticed that hyper people drain me I also don t like being in big crowds I tell my co workers it s me It isn t them and I know it but I don t want to offend them AMW September 28 2015 Reply WOW I totally just experienced this Thank you for posting this article Noise is the 1 set off for me It s can be anything running water random whistling NPR anything it s mainly a pitch though which is easy to spot since I m so angry at that point D I ve got an emergency supply via psych of Xanax I m starting to take1 4th tablets of 0 25 mg to take just enough edge of on those Rage Days It helps just enough without me being ultra crabby or becoming non work functional Also since turning 40 and starting severe hot flashes I ve noticed that the rages are a bit longer which is SO LAME Good luck to all AMW Noelle November 23 2015 Reply I ve been stable for a couple of months but I was taking birth control pills for hormone regulation etc and I just stopped taking them Whew I was an absolute mess for 2 or 3 days anger sadness anxiety headache gah Plus I got a root canal and tooth crown preparation within two days so many shots chewing on one side only for a week and my jaw still hurts a week later Thankfully I m feeling better today I ve always had a bit of PMS mostly headache when I was taking the pill but this was far worse I hope it doesn t go like that every month Alice September 29 2015 Reply I ve had severe depression Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome very bad anger issues and possibly bipolar at a young age We are talking about a little girl who took a knife after a babysitter and took fire from a fireplace on a stick and carried into a dark closest Growing my mood swings were so severe and as I got older my anger became worse I had one period when I was thirteen and then 16 When I was 18 I had a period for well over 2 months which is when I was Diagnosed with Bipolar PCOS and severe depression My problem then and still today is how bad my anger mood swings and depression are around that time of the month It s starts a week before and gets worse until my period is over I d love to hear what you think Is it all these medical issues that causes this or is that what you might call PMT I always called it PMS but always thought it could be more Marbelis October 18 2015 Reply Some of the most popular nauartl products for helping with mood are St John s Wort SAMe 5 HTP or Tryptophan Rhodiola Rosea and some stress relievers like GABA or L Theanine can help too Aside from supplements you can also try going out and doing things you enjoy spending time with friends or even having a good cry If that s not enough to help maybe talking it out with a trusted friend or an objective third party person like a counselor Just remember even though you might feel bad it s never as bad as it may feel Everyone goes through tough times and we can all get through it sometimes we just need a little extra help Good luck Cara November 23 2015 Reply Unless you have talked to your doctor psychiatrist you should be very careful taking these They can interact with your medication And with all due respect I don t think you are understanding how bad this is for some of us A trip out with friends or chat might be fine if you have regular PMS but the rage irritability and exhaustion that we are talking about here may actually be made worse by interacting with friends and you may end up saying something or doing something later that you will regret not to mention the exhaustion sleepiness that makes it almost impossible to move much less go out Sonya November 23 2015 Reply Hi there wow thankyou so much for writing this piece My bipolar pre menstrual rage at certain times scares me and then I am sweet as pie the next And when you mentioned about the noise intolerance it was a revelation I thought it was just me wanting to turn the world down It is a great relief to know I am not the only one going thru this mental hell We just keep battling and soldiering on like the troopers we are Great to know we are not alone Kind regard Sonya Mindy November 23 2015 Reply I was pleased to see this article I see it a bit differently however I view what happens as PMS tips me into a mixed mood episode some months i e I m manic and depressed at the same time and I get extraordinarily irritable as well as suicidal and self harming Some months it lasts a day others it lasts longer I have ended up hospitalized twice due to this once for a suicide attempt So I would never say it s just PMS or an excuse of any sort I see that for those of us with bipolar we are more at risk for mood episodes when our hormones are off kilter Thanks for starting this conversation Gwen November 23 2015 Reply Did you crawl inside my head to write this article Liz November 23 2015 Reply I had the same issue my Dr said I had progressed to PMDD I now take Prozac in addition to my regular meds the week b4 my cycle If not I m literally angry and in tears constantly for days At work in the store while driving around my kids it doesn t matter I am screaming grinding my teeth and or crying Prozac has helped tremendously Lord don t let me miss a day tho Amanda November 23 2015 Reply I m diagnosed bipolar 2 or NOS by another Dr and have always suffered from EXTREME pms Like get outta my way throwing things EVIL pms I do remember that I started my cycle

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  • Giving and Getting | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    of the time I searched constantly for validation from others for my emotions my worthiness my actual existence Sometimes my self esteem still tanks And when it happens bipolar mood shifts can ensue But I am not sure it is the responsibility of others in my life to take care of the problem Sure it d be great if each were sensitive enough to see what the effect my over giving sometimes has on me and in his her own way each could reach out and give back to me in kind That s not always reality Further it s my own responsibility to take care of my own esteem my own self giving At some point it s crucial to learn that I am my own best help my own voice No one really knows how to build the foundation that best suits the house of my needs except me I heard familiar pain in the depressed voice of my loved one While giving is good I learned setting boundaries is important for my own health Best of all is knowing that recovery and wellness comes from understanding that strength is found within I got better these past couple of weeks because I decided to do so and took action I know how to and I hope my loved one is open to learning how to in his future too I think again of the wildflower on my notepad I guess it made my classmate feel good then I think it should have just been allowed to grow its roots delving ever deeper into the ground its blossom becoming richer in color every day Tagged with Beth Mader Boundaries Giving and Getting helping others in crisis Self esteem strength found within About the author Beth Brownsberger Mader Has 199 Articles Beth Brownsberger Mader was diagnosed with bipolar type II disorder and C PTSD in 2004 at age 38 after decades of confusion and pain In the past decade she has studied the two disorders worked in peer support and sought a path to her own wellness Today Beth works as a freelance writer and artist She became a contributing editor featured columnist for BP Magazine in 2007 and blogger for bpHope in 2011 Beth holds a B A from Colorado College and M F A from University of Denver Beth s primary area of interest is the relationship between bipolar and PTSD She is currently working on a memoir and building a body of artwork focusing on her recovery Check out Beth s blog at http www bessiebandaidrinkiewater wordpress com LEAVE YOUR COMMENT Cancel reply Your email address will not be published Required fields are marked Message First Name or Nickname Do not use full name Email RELATED ARTICLES Living with Bipolar Why I Still Exercise and Do Yoga February 6 2016 1 01 am I wrote in this winter s issue of BP Magazine Why I still Exercise about how despite both mental and physical struggles and restrictions

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  • Fast talk: Worried? Do something now. | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    disorder and not related to something specific Take care of yourself You can significantly reduce your worry by managing your illness successfully Feel the worry and do it anyway If you wait for the worry to go away before you take action you will be frozen in place for a long time and probably end up feeling even more worried Try this mantra I m worried crying upset and I m afraid I can t do anything about it But I can and I will Confront what s worrying you even if it scares you and the result may be very painful Tell someone who s hurting you how that makes you feel and that they need to stop Ask a roommate to mop the kitchen floor Talk with your boss employer about a raise Stick up for yourself It s scary to face people you ve been brooding about to ask for what you want or to simply plunge into a project that seems impossible but wow it s so much better than the totally pointless worry Worry is a signal that either your bipolar disorder is acting up or you have a situation in your life that must be changed Don t lie in your bed in a stress ball with a running worry commentary in your head Take action and do something about it I guarantee it will be a relief Julie A Fast juliefast com a bipolar disorder specialist for the Oprah and Dr Oz website www ShareCare com is a national speaker consultant family coach and author of several best selling books on bp and depression Tagged with anxiety worried About the author Julie A Fast Has 189 Articles Julie A Fast is the bestselling author of Loving Someone with Bipolar Take Charge of Bipolar Disorder and Get it Done When You re Depressed She is an award winning columnist for bp Magazine Fast Talk and has one of the top bipolar disorder blogs on the internet Julie is the bipolar disorder management specialist on the Oprah and Dr Oz website www ShareCare com She was the original consultant for Claire Danes on Homeland Julie is not only a leading expert on helping those affected by bipolar disorder and depression she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 and successfully as best she can manages the illness with medications and the strategies in her books Julie knows firsthand about living with and loving someone with bipolar disorder within her own life and helps family members partners and health care professionals understand and support those with the illness Julie is a highly in demand family and partner coach speaker and educator who is passionate about changing the way the world views and manages mood disorders 1 COMMENT Swedican January 30 2016 Reply Excellent article best one I ve read in a long time concerning anxiety worry frozen in place doing something is better than being stuck there S LEAVE YOUR COMMENT Cancel reply Your email address

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  • Ask the doctor: Helpful holiday hints | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    that will help you be healthier this holiday season Here are some questions to get you started For each one that seems significant to you start a separate section in your notebook Remember you don t have to solve the issues just identify them Could a change or the addition of medication help early on if you see your energy or sleep pattern changing Can you plan your holiday schedule so it won t be overwhelmingly full or too empty Are there significant relationships that are typically troublesome during the holidays Are you burdened by expectations from yourself or from others to spend money on gifts when this is just not possible for you Is holiday drinking or drug use a special challenge for you What is the true meaning of the holidays for you personally and are there ways you can focus on these aspects of the holidays that are important to you Once you have your notebook started set aside some time to think about what you can do about these issues Utilize all your resources treatment a support group community resources and articles and websites that deal with holiday stress A trusted friend or relative may be able to help you The goal is to plan your holidays instead of just letting them happen Begin with one or two of your top concerns from your notebook Consider how you might deal with them creatively to change a negative into a positive It will be helpful to consider your energy level and balance your holiday season with a mix of activity and quiet time to pull back from higher energy pursuits And to help soften the post holiday letdown so many people experience be sure to plan something special for after the holidays Tagged with Holidays About the author Jane Mountain MD Has 4 Articles Jane Mountain MD says You get two of me a person who has learned to live successfully with bipolar disorder and a doctor who understands it medically Check out Dr Jane as speaker coach and author of two books at BeyondBipolar com LEAVE YOUR COMMENT Cancel reply Your email address will not be published Required fields are marked Message First Name or Nickname Do not use full name Email RELATED ARTICLES Helping Others Dampens the Effects of Everyday Stress January 5 2016 9 30 am Newswise Dec 14 2015 Providing help to friends acquaintances and even strangers can mitigate the impact of daily stressors on our emotions and our This holiday season Stop judging my son living with bipolar December 30 2015 10 22 am Anyone else dread the holidays It has been a rough year all around Not only am I trying to rebuild the relationship with my son Headlines Holidays and Hope December 26 2015 1 01 am Fourteen years ago I wrote a holiday letter stuffed copies of it into festive cards and mailed or passed it around to family and friends Raising Awareness of Drinking Habits and the Potential

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  • What is the Difference between Bipolar Disorder and Schizo-Affective Disorder? | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    on the internet Julie is the bipolar disorder management specialist on the Oprah and Dr Oz website www ShareCare com She was the original consultant for Claire Danes on Homeland Julie is not only a leading expert on helping those affected by bipolar disorder and depression she was diagnosed with bipolar disorder in 1995 and successfully as best she can manages the illness with medications and the strategies in her books Julie knows firsthand about living with and loving someone with bipolar disorder within her own life and helps family members partners and health care professionals understand and support those with the illness Julie is a highly in demand family and partner coach speaker and educator who is passionate about changing the way the world views and manages mood disorders 9 COMMENTS Lillyson December 31 2015 Reply My son is Bi Polar he has Anagosia Korry December 31 2015 Reply Thank you for the clarification between Schizophrenia and Schitzo Affective disorder I am S A I was always under the impimpression that S A was Schizophrenia with anxiety and depression To now know that it is more closely related to Bipolar disorder with schizophrenic symptoms is definitely enlightening Julie Fast January 1 2016 Reply It s so hard to see someone suffer who can t see the cause of their own suffering You are not alone in this Even when I get psychotic I have to fight through the haze of believing that what I m experiencing is real Your son can learn to do the same Julie Jennifer January 1 2016 Reply When my diagnosis shifted from bipolar to schizoaffective I was really upset I thought it was bad news A few years later and I m okay with it but still don t understand relate to the symptoms in myself The good thing is I have received much better care since my diagnosis changed The hospital I go to has many more resources in the schizophrenia program which I am now allowed to access The mood disorder part of the hospital is quite small So that s a positive Julie Fast January 1 2016 Reply Hello Jennifer I agree Getting help for my psychosis was paramount to my healing I m so glad you are getting the help you need to have a stable and happy life We can be happy Julie Kp January 1 2016 Reply Thanks for this article My son has had mania with every psychotic episode resulting in 4 admissions in 2 years thus far So this means he is definitely not schizophrenic but has diagnoses of Mood disorder BPAD 1 and Schizoaffective disorder Personally I am of the impression after doing a lot of reading that BPAD schizophrenia may well be classified as different aspects of the same condition in the near future The treatment is the same one size fits all trials of huge doses of neuroleptic medications Depressing Kat January 3 2016 Reply Is situational psychosis the same thing or similar

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  • When Living with Bipolar Disorder Changes Your Life | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    August 6 2015 Reply I dealt with the aftermath of mania psychosis by slowly getting better and better I am pretty much stable but it did take time I do sometimes look back on the wonderful carefree times I had before my diagnosis I could relate to the post about the drinking and basically living on the wild side in the fast lane Now I have slowed down much more and I am enjoying my new life I did recently loose an old friendship because I believe my friend wanted me to be the old crazy fun wild person I used to be But that doesn t represent who I am now I have worked hard in my recovery and continue to work hard in my recovery I don t want to be caught up in nostalgia for the past I prefer to live in the present and with hope for the future James Garrett August 6 2015 Reply If there was an entire Bipolar Type I Planet and 100 of the people were just like me psychosis and all we would get by There would be airplanes and penicillin wars God and chopsticks People would simply have different social expectations of each other I m deviant and that characteristic is stigmatizable I ve been psychotic and truth be told still firmly believe those delusions with an unreasoning faith To say so is more deviant still I can t be forgiven to society if I m unrepentant But I m not Having a persistent psychosis isn t something I m ashamed of Actions which result in outcomes I don t like are bad What I do is repress the actions Therefore what I do is inconsistent with what I believe Having the courage of your convictions is a virtue for everyone except the psychotics Solzhenitsyn famously said the line dividing good and evil cuts through the heart of every human being And who is willing to destroy a piece of his own heart For him it was a rhetorical question For me it isn t I destroy a piece of my heart to walk among the normals Sometimes it seems worth it But I do it regardless Nothing kills a person like social exclusion will Better to live in a prison of your own design lrbanks6 August 6 2015 Reply Report user Accepting the fact that I have had this illness my whole life and it s nobody s fault was my wake up call I had to really be honest with myself and admit that this illness has affected every decision I have ever made was eye opening as well I am either always manic or always in psychosis Never in between so who is the real me I had to ask my husband and of course he listed all the good parts of me The hardest part is being honest about the good and bad side of you I m glad you have found that transparency within yourself Marilyn August 8 2015 Reply Yes I often look back on the days prior to diagnosis as well Now I am 52 and was diagnosed at 50 I ve spent thousands of dollars lost and gained 30 pounds so many times I can t even remember been strict been lenient been happy been sad had extreme obsessions severe depression I am still here plugging away All this is just crazy and I wonder what feeling normal is like do I feel normal now am I really Oh well on and on it goes Lizzyb1 August 8 2015 Reply Marilyn I feel the same just turned 55 what is normal Have I been living a lie all my life Diagnosed at 52 but probably lived with this since 21 difficult to contain now left it too long so I ve been told just thought I was normal Kyle August 9 2015 Reply Always inspiring everytime you share your story Andrea Thank you Andrea August 11 2015 Reply Im Bipolar and have bee nadia 5yrs ago messed up my life lost relationships lost my kids because of my choices usedcocaineevdrug out there except home ihAteneedles am clean and sober 5yrs and loving myself and my family and my kid s going to College mental health classes and doing well my sister and I are very close and my husband is wonderful he was diagnosed two years ago and it was hard for him and me both bipolar he s got more medical issues one them athsma struggling with it hospitals etc but we re getting better with family and friend s understanding love you all my lovestall my BP friends family ty for you support till sooni Claire December 3 2015 Reply I have recently come to the conclusion that normal to bipolar people looks quite bland and is difficult to live with when you ve been so used to either being high or low but never really in the middle I m coming to accept normal and learn to make my own magic Happiness is a discipline for some of us it takes real work to get there and sustain it But it s worth it May we all keep seeking and learning and growing towards beautiful stable lives Happiness is homemade JJ February 10 2016 Reply I m a child of someone who was diagnosed as a bipolar manic depressive I m older now and realize that a lot of my life was shaped by this condition As a child I was terrified by the psychotic episodes and bizzare behavior and the fact that I may inherit this condition It drove me to try and understand the whys and hows of the condition leading me in a direction where I can understand and sympathize I majored in psychology in university Just learning how neurotransmitters work in the brain and how my fathers chemicals reacted gave me piece of mind and enabled me to let go some of the terror I

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  • Bipolar, RUSH, and the Healing Power of Music | bpHope - bp Magazine Community
    music I began to find myself relying on their music as a source of inspiration One song in particular Marathon is my unofficial theme song You can do a lot in a lifetime If you don t burn out too fast You can make the most of the distance First you need endurance First you ve got to last And it isn t just RUSH that speaks to my soul There are many others Kate Bush Laurie Anderson Ben Harper Bob Marley Black Uhuru Pat Metheny Peter Gabriel The Roots Morrissey and the list goes on What I ve come to learn is that especially when I m feeling depressed I can turn to music to help lift me out of my malaise It has in many respects saved my life Music has always been there for me It has never failed me and I can always turn to it when I need a mood adjustment I will close with the lyrics from RUSH s song Cinderella Man Because he was human Because he had goodness Because he was moral They called him insane Delusions of grandeur Visions of splendor A manic depressive He walks in the rain Tagged with Bipolar Disorder Karl Shallowhorn manic depression mental health Neil Peart psychosis rush About the author Karl Shallowhorn Has 147 Articles Karl Shallowhorn is the Director of Community Advocacy for the Mental Health Association of Erie County and Compeer of Greater Buffalo He is a New York State Credentialed Alcoholism and Substance Abuse Counselor and has worked in both the addictions and mental health fields Karl is the author of Working on Wellness A Practical Guide to Mental Health 2010 Chipmunka Publishing Karl is a certified Mental Health First Aid Instructor He also works as a mental health consultant and has provided a variety of workplace wellness seminars for businesses and organizations in the Western New York area Karl serves on the Board of Directors for the Mental Health Association in New York State as well as the Erie County Mental Hygiene Services Board 3 COMMENTS James June 19 2015 Reply Happy Birthday to one of the BEST persons in my life ted June 20 2015 Reply Very was good when I read your lines today I not like RUSH butI love Bob Marley music Saw his son in the 1990s Music heal my spirit of BP me also I m diplomatic now Hope you are with a great day too Bless you Carl Ted Margie June 23 2015 Reply Karl thanks for the Rush ideas of reference that feeling has it s own name oh you do have a special connection with Rush just not exactly the way it was in your confused rapidly moving mind I like what you have to say and that you are a cuckoo bird able to help other cuckoos Margie LEAVE YOUR COMMENT Cancel reply Your email address will not be published Required fields are marked Message First Name or Nickname Do not use

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